life's like this

avril lavigne is on the telly. and she so reminds me of a former friend from college. she was all "f*ck you all" on the outside, but soft and mushy on the inside. these days, i refer to her as "the girl i hate". it's strange though. i don't know if it's the thirty thing talking, but i'm starting to miss her. we used to hang out all the time, smoking and talking about the persons we'll turn out to be. we used to stay over at her house, laughing till sun-up, coming up with funny little ditties about how "donna doesn't want to be a waitress, she wants a nice car, she wants to go places..." forgive the lame rhymes, we were twenty and probably drunk.

and now, i'm not even sure why we stopped being friends. something to do with work and trust. she got all threatened and bitchy when we started working at the same place. at least, that's how i remember it. anyway, last i heard, she married some brit who, on top of cheating on her, threw an ashtray at her after she threw a vase at him. she missed, he didn't. and that's just sad - no matter how you look at it.