still breathin'

okay. it's been a while since i've been to this part of town. it's about time i caught you up. (whether there is or isn't a "you" to catch up isn't the point really.) anyway, went to see a doctor today. two doctors actually. a surgeon and an internist. and the question of the day: to cut or not to cut. the surgeon was all for it (of course), while my internist was dead-set against it (am coughing like crazy, you see). am confused now. just wanna throw my insurance papers into the ring and watch them fight over it like hungry wolverines. am tired. of all the poking. of all the pill-poppin'. of all the "what ifs" that hover around me. shoo. all of you. shoo.